I am retiring

What is the greatest thing about retirement?  If I had to pick the best thing about never working again I would have to say it is never having another boss in my life.  Never having another person decide the fate of my day.  Never having anyone push me around again.

When you get to be my age you will probably have had many bosses along your journey.  I have.  I’ve had good ones, bad ones, ones that worked, ones that sat back and watched you do all the work, and those that loved the power.  Most of them actually love the power.  It is there in their eyes.  They can’t eliminate that little bit of sparkle that says  “because I said so.”  Well, for me I am sick to death at having a ” boss” lord over me. 

Retirement isn’t about what age you are, it is about when you can afford to quit your job and never work again.  For me it is a long ten years away.  I am deep in debt so things aren’t looking too good for me. I can’t even begin to think of not working, but boy I wish I could.

The one thing for me, the driving force, the excitement lies in not having someone else ever directing my life again, not having someone else decide the mood of the day, and not having someone else telling me what I can and can’t do.

I don’t have a bucket list.  I hate even the thought because just using that term says it’s going to be over.  Your life that is.  No list for me.  Just do whatever it is you want to do.  Don’t make a list.  Sadly the day may never come when you complete that list.  

You will come with me.

For me retirement means being free of others telling me what to do.  Of having to suck up to those that I want to say ” kiss my ass” to although I would never do that.  I’d like too though.  I mean who wouldn’t.  

It makes me nauseous sometimes standing in a room of my peers while the ” boss” gets to give us that “look” that says “I’m the boss”  you will do as I want, not what you want, not even what you think might be right.  Even the ones who act so sweet have that look when you attempt to assert yourself, or step on their toes.  It’s all about doing it for the business until you cross them, their needs, then it is about them.  F–k the business. 

I’m sure the day will come when we’ve all  had enough.  I look forward to the day when I can decide if and when I get out of bed.  If or when I get dressed, if or when I do anything.  I crave the time when I am no longer answerable to someone else….

I’m also sick to death of being under someone’s thumb.  Of having someone else decide what kind of a day I will have, what my life will be like today.  It’s like a great weight on my shoulders weighing me down.

There is this silent understanding that I am the underling and ” they are the boss.”  And when they all get together, the bosses, it’s like a pack of mice running in circles trying to show who is the most “bossy” of the bosses till the big rat comes in… then they get to ” feel it” too.

There is that special joy in their eyes that says” they are the boss.”  That special smirk that flashes across their faces when they look at the peons before them that pisses me off.  

My greatest joy will be when I no longer have to suck up to anyone.  When I no longer have to keep my feelings in check.  When I no longer have to bite my tongue.

Right now I just do what I am told.  I am ready for that to be over, I’m tired of it. 

I did it my way.

So for me the greatest joy in retirement will be the freedom of being my own  ” boss.”  It will be the satisfaction of making a decision and not having to ask anyone.  

So my advise for the day would be to SAVE your  money for your retirement.  Start planning now so that you can decide if and when you set yourself free.  Don’t let debt keep you tied to the train of despair.  Many of us old folks find ourselves working way past the time when we want too only because we didn’t plan things very well. 

The universe is travelling at a million miles an hour through space, so too our the days of our lives, so plan ahead.  And now that I have depressed you, why should I be the only one, try to have a good day.  Even though time is flying by we can still stop and smell the roses and enjoy the sunshine.  Have a great day today, you deserve, and I do too.

About krissy

I am amazed by life, mostly the world of animals, nature, and things around us. People not so much. Oh, they amaze me. And, I see them. But it is the other things I reach for in a time of stress. And if I am lucky I have my camera handy..
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