It’s so embarrassing to be so stuck. Every single day I think, no, want to devour something sweet. I even thought of just having something, and then just lying about it to you, and everyone. But who would I be kidding, just myself.
I have a box of cookies sitting on my dining room table that I got as a gift when I bought a mattress set for my granddaughter on Tuesday. A box of stale cookies for spending four hundred dollars. I keep looking at that dam box. I keep wanting a cookie even though I know the cookies are going to taste like crap. I mean how many days did they sit around the store for God’s sake before they were given to me.
I am sure they are loaded with preservatives and would probably last a year if I left them out on the table. I don’t care though, they keeping calling me. And to show I am such a smart ass I bought a bag of Christmas Rollos and have them sitting out in a Christmas candy bowl for the ” grand kids.”
Yesterday at work there were mini cheese cake bites, cinnamon rolls and candy on the counter when I walked in. Dam it. It’s like the world is trying to torture me.
The last time I gave up sweets then caved, I remember buying a candy bar and eating it as fast as I could by the candy machine so no one would see me. So no one would know I failed. Hiding out like a criminal. Shameful. And if you think I am kidding, I am not!
I love sweets but there is no nutritional reason to eat them other than pleasure, they sure aren’t healthy. How did this get to be such a problem? I like to blame it on all the packaged sweets that are available. There must be thousands to choose from. I mean who buys a bag of carrots when they are starving, right. We go right for the quick sugar high.
I have lost a pound this last week. That is something. And, I do feel better, not so tired. If I had to be honest I would admit that all in all I am glad that I have made it ten days without sugar. It is liberating not to mention the money I saved by staying away from the vending machine. So, I suppose that I will keep going. Like I said, ONE DAY AT A TIME. But it is a bitch.
Have faith in yourself that whatever trial or tribulation you are struggling with can be conquered. It just takes persistence. Repeat along with me ” I can do this, I can do this.” And we can. Have a great day.