Fell in a Hole, Again!

Sometimes I just want to hang around.

Well as you may have noticed I’ve been missing for awhile.  Not good if you are trying to build up followers but, I fell in a hole again, for the whole of March actually.  Sometimes that happens to me.  I just get depressed.  There I’ve admitted it again.

If you have read some of my previous blogs you will have noticed that sometimes I just go missing. When the depression hits it is hard for me to put on a happy face and make it through the day, let alone share my thoughts.

Perhaps you have had similar experiences.  Perhaps you too have fallen into the hole.  I sure hope that you find a way out.  That you are able to grasp that life line that is hanging over your head too.

There usually isn’t a real cause, I just get into these funks. It just happens.  I feel sad and have no energy.  I never let it incapacitate me as I have no one to support me if I don’t go to work, but that is all I accomplish when I get like this.

Sometimes life is just too much.  I am old, I have aches and pains, I want to retire but can’t, my children don’t pay enough attention to me, I am very introverted and don’t have many friends.  And I just don’t want to do a dam thing.

 

I get upset when the bowl is empty.

Sound familiar?  It’s normal to feel this way.  Yep it is. Sometimes we just want life to be easy.  We just don’t want to have to work for it. Sometimes it would be nice if someone else took care of everything.  If I could just watch television all day.  Read a good book for days without interruption.  Have someone else cook and clean.

But, reality has to set in eventually and we have to move forward.  The first step is realizing that you and I are in a funk.  Acknowledge it.  Admit that it is present.  Feel the feelings because they are real.  Don’t deny your feelings of depression.  And then let go when you are able.

For me I have done this enough times that I know that I will come out of it and the sun will shine again.  I know this.  So I just wait it out. And then sure enough my mood starts to lift and I am glad to be alive.  I count my blessings and thank the lord for giving me another day.  You may not know this but I am a breast cancer survivor. fourteen years now, so I feel guilty when I am feeling down. After all I could just be a bag of bones right now.

Being a survivor doesn’t mean that I don’t get down in the dumps once in a while.  It doesn’t stop me from being selfish on occasion, and it doesn’t stop me from wanting my life to be a breeze. I think we call that being human.

But, we must not let the depression take control and keep it.  We must come out of that dark place at some point.  Sooner rather then later.  If you find you can’t pull yourself out of the hole go see someone. Talk to a professional.  Call a help line.  Talk with a friend and share your feelings with family.  And, if none of this has helped it might be time for the big guns, you may need medication for a time.

This little smile really helps.

Life can be tough, but it is LIFE.  There is much out there to amaze us.  There is much out there to bring us joy.  We just have to be able to let those things shine through.  If you are in a funk you can certainly write to me.  I would be glad to have a chat.  If not me then talk to someone.  Go outside and let the sun shine on your skin, and breathe in the fresh air.  And for today have a great day.  You deserve it.

 

 

 

About krissy

I am amazed by life, mostly the world of animals, nature, and things around us. People not so much. Oh, they amaze me. And, I see them. But it is the other things I reach for in a time of stress. And if I am lucky I have my camera handy..
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